Source: Not About To Give Up!
This past week was awesome in a few ways. I’ve been feeling as if, God is finally opening doors that I had begun to lose hope on. I can see the results of hard work and long hours that have been put into my passions. Now I just have to stay the course. I’ve been watching and praying for my oldest daughter Samaiya, and is living how I have been feeling. She is extremely passionate about playing basketball. She began playing at the age of six with a group of kids in our community, through a church we attended. We took a few years off, and through the process of time, we moved back home to Sacramento and she began playing again at the age of ten. She plays at school, she plays in the Nor Cal Youth Sports League, and she get personal training with Coach Andre at All World Ballin’!
She loves the sport but is so hard and critical on herself when she plays and practices. Most concepts she can grasp easily and efficiently to build a solid foundation but then there are those things that challenge her and bring her to tears. I watch her during games and she wears her heart on her sleeve, when she misses a free throw, when she doesn’t get a rebound, and when her team as a whole is losing. After a bad game the first things out of her mouth are harsh self-criticism. We talk through it, and even though she may not receive the words of encouragement from her father and I, she never gives up. Each failure is making her stronger and building up her stamina to endure hardships. She’s learning at a young age, how to be disciplined and not crumble under temporary defeat. I am so proud when I see her lace up her shoes and keep playing no matter how bad the last game was, or how sore she was after a heavy practice from her coach. I believe that in the future it will be more than just her father and I watching her lead teams to victory. The skills that she is learning now are shaping her to an amazing leader for the Kingdom of God. Her gift will one day make room for her to lead her peers, and the next generation to levels of unseen greatness for the court and the Kingdom of God.
Then I bring it in and realize that God is doing the same thing in my life, just on a different level. The open doors and opportunities come from never giving in to failure, or my own self-criticism. That tenacious passion that keeps me up at night, is the gift and God is making room for here in my community. For every reason that I have been told no, or brushed off to the side, or I got the playbook wrong and had to start over; all of this was apart of His equation for my success. The tears have humbled me, the frustration has given me discipline, and the mistakes have made me organized. Everyday I choose to focus on every opportunity to improve and not waste time wallowing in failure and self-deprecating behavior.
A friend reminded me last week that God is very aware of my efforts and my struggles. She reminded me that every promise He has for me, is right in front of me. That I have been so focused on looking forward, that I forgot to look up at the rainbow of blessing right over me. I shall not forsake all that He is doing and will do in my life, business, and ministry. I will not despise the days that I thought were small beginnings. I remembered immediately, “And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:19, Holy Bible NKJV. What I have accomplished is just the beginning of it all, and He will prepare me and guide me through the rest of this life. It’s His Kingdom that I strive to live for, and I want Him to get the glory.
Look back on your own life, and ask where I have been my own worst critic? What has God been trying to get me to see in the midst of my frustrations? And what promises can I hold on to for the future? If you don’t know what His promises are for you, I have a good book, for you to start to read, the Bible. If you don’t know where to start I would encourage you to pray about it, and reach out to someone that lives to honor Him. Reach out to me if you have to, and will do what I can. Stay motivated my good people, and look up to the rainbow of promises, just right over your head, instead of looking forward without direction.
– Author S.D. Johnson
“Doing Life With You, For Such A Time As This!”
I wanted to give you all an update on my situation from; where I have been, where I am at, and where I am going. Things have been nuts for months now and the skies are finally looking as blue as they use to in the past. For those of you that know, I have struggled for years now with endometriosis, fibroid adhesions, and a plethora of other medical issues. These things have cost my husband and I some issues with infertility, but by the grace of God, we were able to conceive twins without any fertility treatments. After having them I began to get sicker than ever from all the previous ailments listed. I would be sick for at least two weeks out of one month, and that meant that I couldn’t live a life of fullness and purpose. I was at the mercy of emergency room visits and medications that were doing more harm than good. I couldn’t keep any commitments with work or ministry. I basically became a recluse.
Then in the midst of the physical agony that I lived with on a daily basis, I lost someone very close to me. I had been in many positions and training to deal with the bereaved but when its your family, and your heart that is dealing with it, all training and kind words to the mourning go out of the window. It would hit me emotionally off and on, and finally the feelings of loss within my heart are beginning to feel less like a punch in the gut.
Right after that moment, another situation pushed its way to the forefront. I had to make a big decision over my life and my husband and I had to pray over everything that was laid before us. To make this amazingly long story short, I ended up having a full hysterectomy to alleviate my medical issues. Only to understand that there are still somethings that I will always have to deal with because of the internal damage that has been done. Yet, in spite of what the doctors have said, I have been feeling great since my surgery at the beginning of May of this year. I have turned over a new leaf in life and it feels awesome, to not be in constant pain. I can finally take full care of my family, instead of them taking care of me. I can finally engage in the land of the living again and connect with people and keep my commitments to network and build. I can concentrate on my writing and finally finish the projects that the Lord has laid within my heart. It’s exciting to see so much more than the gloom of a four cornered bedroom that you lay sick in everyday.
God has set everything in order and has brought me through to such a time as this, to share and encourage on a level that I have never felt before. No more hindrances of self, and just a season of reigniting my passion to serve Christ without physical hiccups; and I can immerse myself in the things that He has called me to do. He told me and all of us for that matter, that if we just trust Him, if we just love Him, obey, and follow Him; that He would do the rest and meet every one of our needs. Things may not happen when we desire them to, but if we can keep the faith, and pass the tests that are set before us, He will get the glory. Every one of our needs will be met, with nothing lacking or broken.
This is my season, this is our season; to trust more and love more. I’m walking in something so exciting, because its nothing that I have done but, everything that God has done in my life. I’m ready to step back into mentoring, speaking, serving, and walking fully in every area of my life that I couldn’t while being sick. So I ask you now, where are those people that are about connecting and moving together as the Body? My hiatus is over and I am ready to move in excellence with some real Kingdom go getters, I’m so serious. We see this world is dying fast before our eyes, and though the prophets spoke of these days, we can still make an impact. If we can just move from our dead seasons and choose to live again, we can take these last days by force, the way the world has been trying to stifle the Kingdom of Heaven by force. We can move strategically as a unit. You can go so far alone and as a strong unit you can reach the masses. I’ll say it again… My hiatus is over, who’s going to move with us?
Lamentations 3:22-24 It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.
Author S.D. Johnson
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Ball Hog Snippet, this is not your average basketball story:
“Light this!” My mother fussed, shoving the lighter into my hands, and she looked at me as if the alcohol wouldn’t let her focus in on my face. I lit it and gave her back the lighter. She sunk into the couch satisfied and took a long drag from her little burning friend.
We sat there in silence, and it was times like this that I wanted to talk to her. I wanted to know why she was the way she was. Why she lived like the club was the best place to be instead of being with her kids? She wasn’t arguing with me or beating me up with words; she just sat there smoking her cigarette.
“Mom…” I attempted, hoping she would remain cool. She didn’t say anything to me, but she did turn in my direction. She looked like an absolute joke with one eye open like Popeye and the cigarette dangling from her lips. “I’ve been thinking about college a lot. If I don’t make it in playing ball, what else do you think I could go to school for?”
“What?” She asked after a long pause that made me feel so stupid for saying anything at all. “I don’t know what you’re good at.”
I felt two inches tall right then and there. She didn’t care… all she cared about was herself. When I did become someone special in the future, I was done with her. She never had to worry about seeing me or Deja again.
“What?” She asked again getting annoyed. Her alcohol must have been wearing off; she seemed suddenly irritated being around me. “What are you sitting there looking like you are about to cry for?”
I just got up and headed back to my room. I had no point in saying anything else to her.
By Author S.D. Johnson.
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